Sharing Our Guilt And Regrets.

HOW IT BEGINS

You drank too much the night before and that next morning your anxiety is off the charts because you don’t know what you did or the things you said.

You sit there, wrapped in a blanket on the couch, your hair matted to the side of your head asking your husband if he stills loves you.

He laughs, he’s dealt with you many of times on mornings such as these but he assures you that he still loves you even after your drunken shenanigans.

This is normal, you’re not the first to get drunk, kiss your best friend and show a whole room your pasty breasts.

You won’t be the first and you won’t be the last and as long as you’re not committing murder, crimes, or adultery you’ll be ok.

Things like that we can move on from, you had fun, no harm was done and the next day you’re back to being you.

LOOKING BACK

However there are things we have done that maybe hurt others, caused some type of consequence or maybe a decision you made and can never go back.

Though the world turns, we sometimes don’t turn with it and in order to get peace maybe we need to forgive ourselves and move on.

I am here today to talk about some things that I regret, it’s been years and I think about them often.

My heart hurts and I regret what I did, or did not do. I’m sure these people have moved on and it’s not even an afterthought but maybe if I share how I feel I can get some closure.

You may laugh, they’re pretty petty but I can’t seem to get over them.

Most of these actually stem from getting married and no I don’t regret that for one minuet, it’s things surrounding our marriage and leading up to it that makes me cry on occasion.

 

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  1. I am not your typical girly girl, I don’t require much and having a big wedding with ice sculptors was never in the cards. We did what we wanted to do, fairly cheap and we didn’t need a wedding planner.

We booked everything ourselves, right up to our last minuet bachelor/bachelorette parties.

Our parents helped with some shower details and my Dad pitched in a few bucks for the hall, we had help from friends in other areas..but the rest (from what I can remember) was all us.

I think back, it flowed but it could have been more planned.

2. Picking my bridesmaids: 3 of the ladies I picked couldn’t do it, we were getting married in Vegas so it was difficult for some to get out there.

Being short a girl and running out of time, I picked one of the groomsman’s wives to fill in.

I didn’t care! We were getting married and it’s not like I didn’t know her, we still remain friends to this day.

Thinking back though and wondering, could I have maybe picked my mom or aunt, or one of Pat’s sisters, even my own stepsister at the time wasn’t even a thought.

I regret not making better decisions.

 

3. The groomsman: Pat had all his guys picked out, he was set and happy. I had suggested my brother be a part of the party but it was Pat’s wedding day too and I wasn’t going to push the subject.

We never even added my brother into the wedding, since it wasn’t traditional and in Vegas there really wasn’t any special parts for anyone.

I think T.J. was hurt at first but shrugs it off like it’s no big deal. But to this day I feel like a sack of shit, I wanted my brother to be involved and somehow I let him down.

My brother is awesome, he’s grown up to be such a man. he has a job, car, home, he has money and a head on his shoulders. He’s bailed us out many times and is always there for us.

I love him and he knows that but this is one decision I regret, he was there for us in Vegas but only as a spectator and I wish I could change that.

 

4. My stepson Ricky, I wish he could have been apart of the wedding as well, he was younger but I regret not making more of an effort to get him involved. I regret not making more of an effort to have Ricky in my life, he has also turned into a young strapping man and I want him to know I love him.

 

5. The guest list for the party we had a week later back at home: Between his giant Irish family and my huge Italian family we already had a ton of people on the guest list, add that together with our friends and it was very difficult to narrow it down.

I look back. there were a a few co-workers I had invited that didn’t show. Co-workers who I don’t even see or talk to to this day, people that treated me like shit at my job but yet made the list over one special person…  My dad’s cousin Cindy.

She was always my favorite growing up but I hadn’t seen here in a few years and she didn’t make the cut. To this day I regret not having her on the list, I wish I would have thought it more through. I can’t really remember all the details of the guest list but it breaks my heart to know she wasn’t apart of our special day.

 

6. Pictures: We went the cheap rout, had the photographer for a few hours in the beginning and then that was it. She asked who I wanted special pictures with, I don’t remember what I said but I can tell you who we didn’t get pictures with.

My grandma now deceased, my grandpa now deceased, my moms partner a second mom to me, Carole, now deceased, my mother in law, now deceased. I don’t have any pictures with my mom or dad, my brother, step son or really my sister.

I regret not being more aware, I regret not having someone one grab me and say “Hey, let’s get some pictures with your family” I regret all of that.

 

7. We did a dance number as the wedding party was announced, did I give anyone the heads up to video tape it? No, I regret that. I do believe I have video of it somewhere as my friend was able to sprint over and get most of it and I am not even sure I know where that video is.

 

8. Following my dreams more. I wanted to be famous by 18, I am now 34 and have accomplished nothing close to that.

 

9. Being a better wife. I can be pretty shitty sometimes, putting others before my husband and our relationship. He’s the one that matters at the end of the day and he needs to know that.

 

10. Spending more time with the ones I love. Should have done more with my brother when he was younger.

Same thing with some of my cousins. My grandfather who lived down the road, but only saw on holidays my Aunt Barb who after my grandma died haven’t seen much of.

 

TRYING TO MOVE ON

Those are some of mine. I apologize, it was only supposed to be 2 or 3 but I got a little emotional and carried away.

And as I sit here trying to finish this nasty White India Pale Ale my brother left at my house yesterday I realize how lucky I am. Take a deep breath. Live in the now.

Things can be worse.

I’m sure I will still struggle with some of these things because most memories you can’t recreate.  But we can find new things to help us move forward.

My regrets are small, I can live with them, I HAVE lived with them I just wish I wouldn’t always think back and continue to have these horrible feelings.

Maybe opening up to strangers will help, letting those ones I’ve neglected know how I feel and getting some sort of comfort that they have forgiven me as I am trying to forgive myself.

 

HELPING OTHERS

I hope this can help you, maybe there’s something on your chest, some guilt you want to talk about and you’ve never had the moment to let it all hang out.

Use this post as that outlet, I am usually better at helping others than I am myself.

Thank you for reading.

 

 

Everything you need to know about a Himalayan Salt Lamp

THE SALT LAMP CRAZE

People went crazy when these salt bricks came on the scene awhile back but there was some talk that they were fake and the craze kinda died down.

Something happened and once again these tasty treats are back and better than ever. I know this, I work at a bargain outlet store and we can’t keep these humps of salt on the shelves.

These precious glowing salt mounds are supposed to help give you a better nights sleep, purify the air, balance out electromagnetic radiation, calm your allergies and asthma, boost energy and many more fun healthy things your body and mind are lacking.

That information might be all well and good but I can’t contest to any of that…yet.

THE PURCHASE 

Just the other day my husband broke down and bought two lumpy salt piles for our apartment ($9.99 where I work + employee discount, so… Less than that). We’re hoping what we read is true and we can begin to turn back our life clocks and start to feel better.

So, currently I don’t have much to report on as it hasn’t even been a full week but I can tell you some very important information regarding these lamps.

THINGS YOU SHOULD KNOW

1) These bitches weigh like a ton, is it the salt, is it the light, is it the base? All I know is I had to carry two of those up the stairs and I wasn’t having it.

2) They light up the whole fucking room. They say to sleep with it on and that’s great for some but for most…a dark room is required to fall asleep. I didn’t have a problem with it but then I can fall asleep almost anywhere.

 

3) They are hot to the touch, I would let them cool down before you put your filthy mitts all over it.

4)  They definitely have a salty taste to them, I also think I might have burned the tip of my tongue. I also suggest tasting the lamp after it has cooled down.

 

HOW TO USE IT

We have been turning ours off at night and when we leave for work because I don’t want them burning the apartment down. Will they burn it down? I don’t know, but leaving things plugged in and on while I am not at home makes me nervous.

I also don’t know if they shrink or stop working after so long, don’t want to waste up precious salt lamp hours when we’re not around.

They come with a bulb that looks pretty standard, when that goes… just stick anther one in it.

There is also a nice little switch on the cord that you can turn on and off, this way you can keep it plugged in if you must.

 

Well I hope you enjoyed this useful information!

 

Talk at ya later.

Things about me to make you feel uncomfortable.

I saw this on Enele Ogah’s blog the other day, she encouraged me to fill it out.  So here I am. It’s been a hot minuet since I’ve completed one of these bad boys, hope you enjoy.

 

 

What are you wearing?

  • Blue hooded Adidas pullover, blue jeans with my blue Nike’s that have a hole in the toe that I am insecure about. That’s what I was wearing yesterday when I started this post, I am now wearing my dead grandpas favorite black and red flannel over a Cleveland Browns Shirt. The same blue jeans from yesterday because I suck at life, and a different pair of blue Nike’s.

Ever been in love?

  • Yes, currently with my husband.
  • Yes, currently with Jack Nicholson.

 

Ever had a terrible breakup?

  • Nope.. Well, there were shitty 2nd grade breakups that don’t count. My husband is my first real relationship and we are still going strong.

 

How tall are you?

  • Tall isn’t a word I’m usually associated with. I think, 5’1″-ish

 

How much do you weigh?

  • Well. If you must know. I have no clue at the moment. I usually fluctuate between short and stubby and short and chunky (135-155 lbs).

 

 

Any tattoos?

  • Hells yeah. 3, wow. Soo many. My first one when I was 18 are music notes on the left side of my lower abdomen. My 2nd is a set of paw prints starting at the right top of my booty running up my lower back. Last but not least, I have a girl volleyball player on my right shoulder blade. I want more, I’d like to get a sleeve but I’m broke and very anal about picking the right tattoo.

Any piercings?

  • 6 in my right ear, 5 in my left.

 

OTP (One True Pairing: what’s your favorite fictional couple)

  • Eh, don’t think I have one.

 

Favorite show

  • I watch a shit ton of TV. Probably The Walking Dead, American Horror Story is right up there too.

 

Favorite bands?

  • Maroon 5
  • Hanson
  • Alanis Morissette is not a band but she’s MY FAVORITE!!

 

Something you miss?

  • My Grandma
  • My cat Homer
  • Carole, my mothers partner
  • My Grandpa
  • The relationship I once had with my mom.
  • Having the time to read, play video games, and chill.

 

Favorite song?

  • Can’t think of a favorite but at the moment I am obsessed with Sia’s new Snowman song that just came out.

 

How old are you?

  • 34 and still going…

 

Zodiac sign?

  • The naked lady (Virgo)

 

Favorite Quote? 

  • Don’t think I have one.

 

 Favorite actor/actress?

  • Actor: Jack Nicholson
  • Actress: Whoopi Goldberg , though that was a million years ago and I’m not as obsessed as I was back then. I really like Melissa McCarthy now.

 

Favorite color?

  • Blue
  • Green – I also fancy green.

 

Loud music or soft?

  • This is a weird question, both.

 

Where do you go/what do you do when you’re sad?

  • Wherever I happen to be when I am sad. Life goes on.

 

How long does it take you to shower?

  • When I shower? Ahhh, depends if I am washing my hair or how many cracks, crevices, and limbs I have to shave.

 

 Ever been in a physical fight?

  • Sorta…

 

Turn on?

  • ((Giggles)) – Giggling does not turn me on, I am just giggling at what actually turns me on. (Wouldn’t you like to know?)

 

Turn off?

  • Stupidity
  • Know it alls
  • People who are mean for no reason
  • Dirty balls

 

 The reason I joined YouTube?

  • To make a name for myself, that’s going soo well.

 

 Fears?

  • Spiders
  • Dying

 

Last thing that made you cry

  • It was a TV show I think… no movie, it was the most current of The Planet of the Apes, cried three separate times I believe.

 

 Last time you said you loved someone?

  • Sometime today to my husband.

 

 Meaning behind your YouTube/Blogging Name?

  • GoneStalking. I stalk celebrities and blog about my experience. I got the name from Gone Fishing, you know the sign people would put in their doors at work when they are closed for the day. Thought it was nifty.

 

 Last book you read?

  • Stephen Kings Finders Keepers.

 

 The book you’re currently reading?

  • Stephen Kings, Fire Starter. Started but haven’t gotten very far. Too busy to read. ((sad face))

 

Favorite Book?

  • Don’t really have one. Under the Dome by Stephen King was really good.

 

Last show you watched

  • Does kinda watching a show your husband was watching count? It was Green Arrow, the last one I purposely watched was I think… Family Guy.

 

 Last person you talked to?

  • My co-worker Mike.

 

 The relationship between you and the person you last texted

  • My boss. He’s a pretty sweet dude.

 

 Favorite food?

  • Hmmm. I love food. Pizza is yummy, I like a good chicken burrito bowl, chips and queso are my weakness. Mostly anything with cheese.

 

  Place you want to visit?

  • Italy maybe.

 

Last place you were?

  • I guess the Music Box Supper Club, last night stalking Jeff Daniels.

 

 Do you have a crush?

  • No

 

Last time you kissed someone?

  • This morning, no tongue action.

 

 Favorite flavor of sweet?

  • …Dark Chocolate.

 

What instruments do you play?

  • Drums all day long.
  • Guitar, I can pluck a few chords.
  • Piano, I know like one song.

 

Favorite piece of jewelry?

  • Not a jewelry gal. I guess my wedding ring.

 

Last sport you played?

  • Volleyball

 

Last song you sang?

    • Jimmy Eat Word, Sweetness.

 

Favorite chat up line?

  • No.

 

Have you ever used it?

  • No

 

Last time you hung out with anyone

  • Last night, stalking in Downtown Cleveland.

 

 What I like and dislike about Lagos

  • I don’t know what this means.

 

Should parents always beat their children?

  • Always is the key word here. Only when they deserve it and by beat.. I don’t mean punching them in the face 40 times. But if they act up, they need a good smack. Kids these days are out of control, they are tiny little evil killers.

 

 Who should answer these questions next? 

  • You!

 

Jeff Daniels, Fool Me Twice.

Jeff Daniels

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HOW IT BEGAN

It was Thursday evening (11/16/17), we bundled up and headed out into the cold Cleveland night to hopefully get more than just a glimpse of Jeff Daniels.

It was about a 30 minuet drive, give or take a few minor re-routing situations.

(If you are unaware, we attended the Ben Daniels Band show a few years back. We also attempted a stalk. Click HERE for that story.)

We made it to Music Box Supper Club a smidge after 6, that would give us 2 hours before the 8pm show to hopefully snag Jeff.

$6 to park, very reasonable and it was literally like 40 feet from the building.. you couldn’t beat it.

There was a small white van parked next to a slightly larger blank van, we feared the band was already inside. We decided to wait it out, one can never be too sure.

It never rained but it was brisk and the cold was seeping into our souls, luckily for us we had the beautiful skyline to keep us company.

During this time some activity was going on outside the black bus, people kept getting on and off.

It was dark and since we were unfamiliar with the Ben Daniels band and its members we were nervous about approaching anyone without knowing their name.

A quick Google search did us no good, at one point a female got off the bus and walked by us. Pretty sure she was part of the band but we panicked and let her go by.

Shortly after that another gentleman came out of the building, he went to the white van and came back.

So I puffed out my chest and asked if he was a member of the band. He said yes, so I followed that up if we could get a picture with him.

He was very awkward, was wondering why we would want a picture, I informed him he could say no but he said yes and then asked if we were going to the show… in all that talking he slowly backed up to the door and disappeared.

Turns out he was with the other band, Davina and The Vagabonds, who also had a gig that night.

We noticed two other guys come out and grab something from the white van, we think they might have been Zack Lozier – trumpet & vocals and Steve Rogness – trombone & vocals but that’s just a guess.

More movement from the black van, which we now assessed as the Ben Daniels band van, we just didn’t know where Jeff was.

Was he in the van, was he inside already… maybe he was going to roll up 30 seconds before showtime in a fancy car with tinted windows and rush inside.

We didn’t know and it was getting closer to 8.

AND WE WAIT SOME MORE

There was more moment from the bus, people getting on and off but no Jeff yet.

At about 7:35pm, Shari heard the bus door open up. She peered around the corner and spoke frantically “Lauren, I think that’s Jeff!”, I then poked my head over in the buses direction.

I stepped off the cement and into the parking lot, never passing the white pole or approaching them in anyway.

All I could see was the back of someones head locking the bus door while a younger kid held open the secret side venue entrance.

I was 99.9% sure it was Jeff but without seeing his face, I didn’t want to call out his name.

I think part of me felt good about this situation,  I felt that he would turn around, gesture for us to come over or at least indulge us with some witty conversation.

To find out what happens NEXT please continue to read.

Jenna who was with us, yelled “Jeff” and ran but he never turned. When he started to move towards the door I could see the side of his face and knew it was him.

I said “Hey Jeff, can we get a picture real quick?” He never looked over, he never waived, he never said hi, he didn’t even flinch as he walked in.

The younger guy, who I assume was his son Ben held the door for him.

He looked over, locking his dead, cold eyes with mine and once Jeff was in the building he followed right behind, closing the door forever.

We waited a couple more minutes, I sent them a Tweet and decided to see if maybe they felt bad for ignoring us and would come back out.

With frozen toes and a broken heart we got in our car and left, as we were pulling out Shari saw what looked like Ben come out and head back to the van. That sly son of a bitch.

YOU’VE MADE AN ENEMY OUT OF ME 

Well Jeff, you did it again. You ignored your fans, not once but twice.

We gave you the benefit of the doubt and thought we’d catch you before the show, less people, less attention…easy peezy.  But you clearly wanted no part of it.

What’s worse was that you were in that bus the whole 2 hours we waited outside for you and then you could not even give us the satisfactory of a wave.

We never approached the van, we gave you your space and even when you came out we didn’t come rushing. Just 3 cute gals all bundled up looking to snag a selfie.

You don’t owe us anything but as an artist, actor, and musician it kind of comes with the territory.

This is something we won’t forget and don’t worry, the next time you’re in Cleveland traveling as your sons sidekick, we won’t bother you.

Huge shutout to Music Box Supper Club! Everyone is always polite, parking is super affordable and the atmosphere (even on the outside) is magical. Check out their upcoming concerts here!

 

 

Thank you everyone for sticking around, sorry it was an uneventful night.  Please stay tuned for more stalking stories as well as some more personal blogs from myself.

 

STALK YA LATER!

Jeff Daniels: A Second Chance.

A little over two years ago Shari and I got tickets to see Jeff Daniels perform at Music Box Super Club, you can check out that blog post here.

We initially were there for the stalk but sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and support the musicians, show them some love and hopefully they continue to visit Cleveland.

If you are not familiar with Jeff Daniels, you may know him from his popular 1994 role as Harry Dunne in Dumb and Dumber.

While I was combing through the possible celebrity stalk list, Jeff popped back up.

I pondered the thought and then moved on, if you haven’t checked the old blog yet I’ll fill you in real quick.

After the show we went out back to try to meet Jeff, he came out to say “hello” to a few friends and then hopped in his car and left. As always, a failed stalk leaves us feeling a bit salty. S

o, with this stirring up old feelings I wasn’t sure if I wanted to drive back out to Cleveland only to get denied again. But in this line of business, yes… I said business you just don’t give up.

A day or so later Shari had contacted me about Jeff, we talked and didn’t know if he was worth another try. After some thought, we’ve decided to give him a second chance.

Jeff will be back at Music Box Supper Club, Thursday the 16th. The plan is to hit him up before his 8 o’clock show, hopefully it won’t be as cold and dark as the last time.

Before show stalks are a little tricky but if you time it right…it can bode better for everyone.

Pros:

  • Usually, warmer and not as dark.
  • There’s less likely to be a crowd, if any at all.
  • They are not rushing to leave because they have a flight to catch.
  • Sometimes it takes them longer to come out, could be a meet and greet, they are packing up, mingling or taking a shower. So it can get very late, you usually have to set a time you’re willing to stay till.

Cons:

  • You can miss them totally. If you get there late and they are already inside, there’s a good chance they are NOT coming back out.
  • They are running late, meaning they roll up minuets before their gig and go right inside.

 

That is all for now, I’ll make sure to update everyone on our adventure…. good or bad.

 

STALK YA LATER!

 

Below I’ve added some video of our 2015 encounter with Jeff, please enjoy!

 

Jeff performs with his son Ben.

 

Jeff ditching out on some fan love.

Maintaining A Regular Blog

CONFLICT OF BLOGGING CONSISTENTLY 

So here I am.

I want to blog about the random, scary, and inappropriate thoughts that float around inside my head. Most of these thoughts suffocate never to be seen or heard from, not until the next morning when I have my first bowel movement, but even then it’s too late to share em.

I sit here, trying to work but all I can think about is writing. I come here to write but I feel guilty about not getting any work done, this is clearly going to be a vicious cycle.

DOUBTING MYSELF

I’ve read those above 93 words over and over and over again, get tired and then go back to calibration documents and excel charts. I come back and have a tiny monologue with myself about the use of “bowel movement”… more gross than funny?

I clearly see my tiny corn filled ideas floating around in a white pool of water with little X’s over their eyes, but to others those creative little poop guys I see soo sharp in my mind look like regular brown turds lacking fiber. So here I’m torn with even keeping the sentence in there.

*Whispers* (I’m keeping the sentence in there)

If I go down this path of regular blogging, am I committed enough to post on a daily basis? My heart is like “HELLS YEAH” and then aggressively high fives me.

 

My brain has a sit down conversation with me on how consistently blogging looks unrealistic for me and my future…

WHAT A CONVERSATION LOOKS LIKE WITH MYSELF 

Brain: “Lauren. This sounds great and all but tell me when you’re going to find time to write?”

Me: “Shit, I mean I’ve thought about this before but I can probably make it work.”

Brain: “Monday, you work till 4 and then have an hour to maybe eat and fix your fro in the mirror before you go to bowling. After bowling, well you usually go to bed.”

Me: “I can do it at bowling, I’ve done it before.” I say feeling proud of myself.

Brain: “Correct, you have, but it’s rude. Your friends try to talk to you and you’re face is buried in your iPad, plus, you can’t really focus on your game OR your writing… can you?”

Me: “No. How about Tuesda—-“

Brain: “Tuesday you were going to say? Tuesdays you work a double, by the time you get home it’s right to bed for you.” A slight pause  “Maybe Wednesday, depending on what time your volleyball game is after work. If it’s early, you’re rushing around trying to eat something and then you’re out the door. If it’s late, you sometimes go into your 2nd job for more hours or you look for something to eat and dick around on social media… So, maybe Wednesday. We’ll hold off on that one.”

Me: “Ok, maybe Wednesdays.”

Brain: “Thursdays, work 8-9 hours and then you go to the bowing alley to watch Patrick bowl. You don’t have to but, he likes when you’re up their cheering him on. Plus you get to eat bowling alley food and drink for free because the guys love you. Thursday is also an option…”

Me: “Yeah, Thursdays are fun.”

Brain: “Fridays… the usual work and then volleyball. Same thing with how late the games are, you may go into job #2 because you need the money or you’ll sit on the couch and veg with Patrick because you have 1 million recorded shows on your DVR you have to watch.”

Me: “I can’t tell, am I crying or is it you?”

Brain: “Saturday, every Saturday you work your 2nd job and what you do after that depends on the weekend plans but usually it’s home to die… and do you want to talk about Sundays?”

Me: “Not really…”

Brain: “Sundays you get up super early and go tailgating when the Browns are in town, at least you get to drink because the pain afterwards is usually too much to bare. You get home, eat a whole pizza, watch more shows or football and then go to bed to die. Somewhere in between you’ve maybe fed the cats/turtle, showered, did laundry or dishes, sat down, or took a breath. 4 1/2 hours later you alarm goes off, it’s Monday and you’ve started that all over again. If you’re lucky the cat puke you’ll step in on your way to the bathroom won’t be super gooey and that body you’ve neglected to wash for 36 hours will be good enough for one more shower-less day, saving you time to run and snag a Red Bull before your shift starts… that’s if your bank card doesn’t decline…again.”

The End..or is it?

As you can see folks, that’s my schedule in a nutshell, give or take a few random occurrences.  There are definitely loop holes and plenty of opportunities to get some writing in but usually when that happens I am just soo exhausted that writing is the last thing on my tired mind. I’ve tried to sneak in it at work but that’s unfair to myself and my place of employment… so I steer clear of that.

IN CONCLUSION

I’ve come up with a few ways to help myself overcome this dilemma and find some time for myself and writing. Hopefully these can help you too!

  1. Jot down a few ideas, make a list of topics to write about. Pick ONE idea and periodically throughout the day think about it, if you have time… begin to write. I feel once you get those creative juices flowing it’s easier to just get to work rather then sitting at your screen thinking of something. I’ve done that where I’ll think of something all day and put together a little story in my head, it’s actually getting motivated to take that extra step and start the blogging process.
  2. Finding the time: This is a hard one. You have to be willing to give some things up, or cut some things short without turning your life upside down. For example. Maybe I can skip out on watching my husband bowl here and there, or making an hour designated to my writing directly after work or before dinner.
  3. Don’t force it, if it’s not flowing then walk away. But if those ideas come flooding in, just have some paper, a computer, or a phone handy to jot down all those nifty ideas.

 

What are some good ideas that you as a busy blogger use to help you maintain a regular blogging lifestyle? I’d LOVE to hear them.

 

Thank you for stopping by!

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An absence in stalking.

Hello fellow stalkers,

Have you missed me? Probably not.

I’ve been on Twitter for quite some time now but I have currently started interacting with fellow bloggers. I want to start daily (LOL) blogging about feelings and crap and it might not ALL be about the “stalkin'”, however my intentions are to keep it close if I can.

 

Let’s start off by filling everyone in real quick… eh?

 

2 years ago I promised you blogs on the following

  • Finesse Mitchell
  • Joe Machi and John Crist
  • Shawn Colvin
  • Sean Hurwitz
  • Tom Papa
  • John Caparulo
  • Mike Armstrong and Herbie Gill
  • T.L.C. and Nacho Extreme
  • Amy Schumer

 

Took this Engagement like photo with Finesse Mitchell back in 2015 after he performed at Hilarities.

My gal pal Holly and I getting all snuggles with comedian Joe Machi after his show. I then jumped in with John Crist (white guy) annnd I don’t know the other guys name, they were the opening acts at Hilarities back in 2015.

Singer Shawn Colvin after her performance in New York for the Lincoln Center Out of Doors concert back in 2015. It was a free concert, we were actually there to snag Fiona Apple but she slipped through the cracks.

Sean Hurwitz from Smash Mouth and singer Suzi Oravec performed at Scenes Pig and Whiskey festival in Willoughby back in 2015.

  • Tried to get the lead singer but he disappeared, Sean was nice enough to stick around and meet all the fans. He even interacted with a child.
  • Suzi is a Cleveland gal that sings country and was a blast to take pictures with.

Comedian Tom Papa after his act at Hilarities back in 2015.

Smiles with John Caparulo after his comedy act back in 2015 at Hilarities.

Comedians Mike Armstrong and Herbie Gill after their act back in 2015 at the HardRock Casino.

The beautiful ladies of TLC, Chilli and T-Boz and then with Nacho Extreme, good friends and security on The WahlBurgers.

  • Shari and I went to the concert, it was TLC, NKOTB, and Nelly.
  • Paid $99 for meet and greet passes, no stalking was involved for TLC.
  • Barley House in Cleveland had an event after the concert, rumors of the NKOTB clan would be there. $10 cover charge, stayed awhile but there was no signs of the boy band. Did get to meet Henry Nacho from The Wahlburgers, not a total loss.

Stalker in crime Shari grinning ear to ear with Amy Schumer after her comedy act at Playhouse Square back in 2015.

  • I was supposed to be at this show but she had rescheduled the original date and the new one fell when I was on vacation.
  • Definitely one I regret, because Amy is hilarious as balls. I loved her on season 5 of last comic standing a million years ago and have been a fan since.
  • She did an HBO special, pictures and video from her meeting Shari in Cleveland made it on the opening credits. I have video of it somewhere…it will probably never get posted. 🙁

 

A couple extras that happened after the fact.

Bobby Collins was a delight to meet, the comedian took pictures after his show at Hilarities.

 

The below collage of photos took place at The Lake County Captains, Cleveland Sports History Night

Former Indians player Ellis Burks.

Former Indians player Len Barker

Former Cavaliers  Jim Chones.

Former Cavaliers Campy Russel

 Former Browns players Greg Pruitt and Mike Pruitt.

Cleveland State University Head Coach Dennis Felton.

John Carroll University Head Coach Mike Moran

 

A couple of failed stalks include:

  • Chris Rock / Total Blackout Tour. It was a cold and rainy day. We drove down to Cleveland before the show, PAID to park and waited for Chris to arrive at the Playhouse Square. 3 of us huddled under 1 umbrella that was now turned upside down from the dramatic winds. At one point we ran back to our car because the rain was soo heavy, but when we saw a car pull up we darted back across the street to try for the stalk. Pretty sure it was Chris, I don’t remember if we saw him get out or not. We left shortly after, drenched and defeated.
  • Shari went back the next day and tried again, this time I do believe she saw Chris but he kept on walking.
  • Found out Dave Chappelle, Arsenio Hall, and Ardie Fuqua were all surprise guests on this particular night in Cleveland.
  • Hall who is a Cleveland native tweeted about his experience.

 

  • Howie Mandel. Performed at the Hardrock Rocksino last year about this time.
  • We got there early to catch him before the show. He pulled up, pretended he was on his phone and walked by…NEVER even looked up to acknowledged us. It was rude.

 

  • Mary J. Blige / Strength of a Woman Tour. Performed at the Hardrock Rocksino.
  • Got there early, missed her going in. Stayed till the end of the show but security pushed us SOOO FAR BACK we didn’t stand a chance. Saw what we thought was her leave, get in the bus we thought was hers annnnd… jumped in our car to follow until our exit came up. Went home tired and defeated.

 

Some upcoming stalks include:

  • Johnny Mathis. I’ve been a fan of Johnny since I was a child, on Christmas Eve we’d all sing along to his Christmas VHS tape. His Christmas album is one of my favorites and I listen to it religiously during the holidays.
  • Johnny has been performing at the Playhouse Square for quite some time now when I finally realized it was time for a stalk.
  • A few years back…Hanson was also performing the night Johnny was and we decided to make it a 2 for 1, snag Hanson (At HOB) before the show super early and then hit up Johnny at the Playhouse. However Hanson came out later than usual and by the time we made it back to the Playhouse Johnny was already inside. We waited for a little, tried to get some of the workers to get him to come out but it never happened. Unfortunately, we were also seeing the Hanson show (and still had to snag the two other brothers) that we could not come back for Johnny.
  • Fast forward. Johnny will be back in Cleveland Friday, November 3rd. With such short notice, little money, and an early volleyball game I don’t think I am going to make it this time around either. I was actually looking forward to going to the show as he will be performing his new album The Great New American Songbook.

 

  • Nick Offerman / Full Bush Tour. He will be at the Playhouse Square on November 19th, I’d actually really like to see the show. I am working on getting tickets now but if not, I’d love to meet Nick, he’s hilarious.

 

  • Fred Willard / An Evening with Fred Willard. Another Playhouse Square performer, he will be in Cleveland on December 30th.
  • Ticket prices are $18 in advance and $20 at the door, seems very reasonable.
  • “We’re extremely proud to have comedy legend and Shaker Heights native Fred Willard joining us for the 2017 Cleveland Comedy Festival for a fun and engaging evening that celebrates his amazing career in film, TV, sketch and improv comedy.  The show will feature video clips from Fred’s most notable appearances as well as open, un-scripted conversation with Fred facilitated by WCPN Sound of Ideas host and Plain Dealer columnist Mike McIntyre.  You know Fred, you love Fred, join us in the Outcalt Theatre for a great evening with America’s favorite comedic everyman.” – Playhouse Square

 

These are just to name a few as there are others I have yet to fully look over and put down on paper.

 

Scheduling is hard.

Cleveland is far.

Parking isn’t cheap.

 

Above are some of the conflicts I am faced with when deciding on my next victim, but with a little better planning and a positive attitude anything is possible.

 

Once again, thank you for you time.

Don’t forget to SHARE, LIKE, and COMMENT.

 

Stalk ya later!

 

 

Facebook

Hello,

I have been more productive on the Facebook stalking page, I find it easier. However I do love my home here and it’s more creative (I feel) as far as adding pictures, videos, links, etc.

In the meantime I have linked my Facebook feed to the right hand side of the page for those of you who continue to show up here and are disappointed by it’s lack of content.

There are stories to share and experiences we can both cry about together, I just haven’t had the time or energy to blog about them and for that I apologize.

Maybe I will just blog about random stuff daily for those in between stalker moments. Either way, thanks for still sticking around.. you know who you are ((echo…echo)).

Stalk at ya later!

En Vogue – Round Two!

 

EN VOGUE

The last time these ladies came to Ohio, they were performing at the House of Blues. Check out the link below, it is the first blog and our failed attempt at meeting En Vogue.

An En Vogue failed attempt turns up Cleveland Hero.

SUCCESS!

back to back successful stalks and blogs, how exciting.

This one also takes place at the Hard Rock Rocksino, this must be the lucky spot.

The ladies of En Vogue were on our STALKtober calendar but it was a last minuet decision to actually go to the concert.

Shari was able to get us cheap tickets off of Groupon so we decided to have a little fun and go.

We met our friend Fred up there, it had almost been 2 years since we last saw him which was actually the first time we met him the last time En Vogue was here.

He had an extra bracelet to get backstage after the concert and there were 2 of us, so he said if he could snag another one he’d let us know and we’d all be able to go back together.

The show was about to start so we parted ways and went into our own sections and waited.

The ladies came out Rockin’ and kept it going till the very end, the energy inside the place was crazy and we had a good time.

When it ended Shari and I walked over to where Fred was, security had everyone with green wrist bands line up against the wall and when they started to escort them in we were asked to leave the area.

I had told the one security guard that we had a friend inside that was going to try and get an extra wrist band so we could go in.

He introduced himself as Josh and to stay close by, if he came out we can ask for him and he will take us back.

Shari and I were outside the main theater, waiting in the casino part starting to panic.

There were only a handful of people that went back and we did not know how long they were going to be back there.

WE HAD TO MAKE A DECISION

We could wait here and hopefully Fred would get the ok to bring us back but if he couldn’t then we waited inside and missed them coming out the back.

Or , we could just go out back and catch them as they got in their ride. Shari felt strongly about going outside and waiting, this way we knew for sure we would catch them.

So panic set in and we left the casino and walked outside to the back and waited for them to come out.

WAITING OUTSIDE

It was just the two of us there, like we thought, and the get away van was still there so we felt good about this.

Two security guards came out and put us in charge of the of the line, he said that if we are nice the ladies might sign but it’s totally up to them.

We agreed, of course this wasn’t our first rodeo.

While we were talking to the guards Fred sent a message and told us to get back there. We panicked…again and didn’t know what to do, we figured they would not let us back inside the hall.

Fred then replied with HURRY, I gave Shari the look and we took off running back to the place we just left.

Shari who had heels on was lagging behind, lol. It was funny.

We get back inside the building and  could see Fred’s head peeking out from behind the main doors, he sees us and motions for us.

We get inside and Fred takes off running, I’m like shit, this is going down. Josh looked at us and was like “I told you to stay close”, literally 2 minutes after we left, Fred came out looking for us while we were outside freezing in the dark parking lot.

Josh walked us back through the double doors to the lobby and then into the theater and the secret backstage door where we walked down a hall that had the smell of delicious foods.

Fred peeked his head out of the first door on the left and waved us in, we looked like we didn’t belong (haha) but we made it work.

The room was small and filled with people sporting green wrist bands, Fred walked over and started gathering the ladies from En Vogue so we could meet and get a photo.

At this time they were wrapping up, Terry told one of the guys (maybe manager or personal body guard) that we were the last in the group and then they were leaving.

Shari and I stood there, we made idol chit chat with Cindy, I  told her how we had a lot of fun and she said us fans are the ones that give them energy and make it happen.

During this Rhona came over to get in with the group picture and make it complete, the ladies were all very nice and patient.

We got our picture taken and while they were trying to get the girls out Cindy signed my ticket stub real quick before she disappeared out the door.

En Vogue

Backstage with the #EnVogue gals, #CindyHerron#TerryEllis, and #RhonaBennett.

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As we were leaving another security guard was like, glad we found you.

I guess we had a search party looking for us, good times.

We said our goodbyes to Fred and then got in our car and went home.

 

SPECIAL SHOUT OUT TO OUR  BUDDY FRED WHO CAME THROUGH WITH THE HOOK UP!!!

THANK YOU EN VOGUE FOR THE CHANCE TO MEET YOU!

Thanks to the staff at the Hard Rock Rocksino who helped us get back stage and how polite and nice they were as we went running around like lunatics.

AND THANKS TO ALL OF YOU THAT READ THE BLOG!!

 

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STALK YA LATER.

 

 

America’s Got Talent Live Tour

America’s Got Talent comes to Cleveland.

 

GETTING THE TICKETS

 

Patrick (my husband, for those of you that don’t know) and I bought our tickets pretty quickly after they went on sale.

We had seriously considered buying the Meet and Greet package but money was tight and I believe those tickets were around $99.

We decided to wait it out and see where we were with money when it got closer.

As you can see below, Taylor was pretty excited for us too.

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Flash forward to that night, Pat and I had donated enough plasma to enjoy the buffet at the Hard Rock Roscksino and dabble in a little gambling.

The buffet line was atrocious and by the time we got seated it was after 7 AND the show started at 8, but we inhaled our food and made it just in time.

It was very exciting for me because I have been a fan of the show since the beginning and absolutely loved Taylor and Emily, so being able to see them perform was a treat.

The seats were not THAT bad but the set up of them was stupid, they had folding chairs zip tied together on what seemed like a basketball court.

No stadium seating, hard to see in front of you and it was pretty cramped, but lucky for me there were a couple of screens off to the side I was able to watch when my neck got old and tired.

The first half of the show seemed to go by pretty quickly but it was very entertaining, especially since the old lady behind me kept going “Oooh, oh…ooh..oh.. how’d he do that?. Oooh, ooh” She then bitched that Emily sucked and the show wasn’t worth $90, they got up at intermission and never came back. Good riddance, I say!

Tomas de la Cruz, also know as “Smoothini” the Ghetto Houdini performed the close up magic tricks and was outstanding.

Very outgoing and had the crowed in awe every time he was on stage. During intermission he was walking around the crowd and talking to people, I just stared at him, fighting my nerves to run over there and get a quick picture.

Instead I just stood there until he disappeared out into the lobby, that’s when I finally got the courage and chased after him. I stood in the doorway and scanned the room with my eyes, looking for any signs of Smoothini.  Within a few seconds I spotted him talking with some people, so I scooted on over awkwardly.

One guy came up and asked for a picture, he said how him and his mom were huge fans and voted for him a million times.

That was my cue so I jumped in. “Hey” I said with too much energy, “I didn’t vote for you but can I get a picture anyways?” I blurted out. “I love your honesty” he replied and then we posed for a “stalkie” (new word curtsy of Kim B)

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I had taken 2 pictures, he was on my left so I had a hard time taking them with my weak, less dominant hand and in the first pic he is looking one way and I am looking the other and then the other picture he is looking at the camera and I am not.

Silly story but necessary to share, I of course posted the one with me looking at the camera. 🙂

We interacted a bit more afterwards, he said something and I made a joke about playing cards appearing out of my ears or something. I’m sure it was hilarious.

I thanked him and said our goodbyes and then I stood in the corner scoping out the scene for any other celebrities that might be lurking around.

(Check out the video below to see Smoothini’s act.)

After a few minutes I made my way back and waited for the show to start back up. Taylor was funny, as always and won my heart from the beginning.

If I were to vote he would have gotten a few, same thing would have went for Emily who always gave me goosebumps, but we never watched the show live and were always days, sometimes weeks behind in watching.

Moving on.

The show ended and we waited for the crowd to thin out before we made our way into the lobby.

When we got inside I could see people taking pictures and I just knew there were celebrities around that corner.

Pat told me that he saw Taylor and Emily taking pictures and signing autographs with everyone.

Well, that was my cue to get nervous and ready, so we squished in with the peoples and waited.

As we waited my mouth started to dry up and panic started to rise in my chest, a nice lady that was standing next to us heard my pray to the mint Gods and she offered me some gum as long as I took her picture with Taylor.

Done. We started chitchatting, she was very nice and she gave me gum so she was my friend.

The line was moving pretty slowly but Taylor informed us he would get to everyone and apologized for the long wait.

I kept peeking over to make sure Emily was still there, her line wasn’t as long and I was afraid she would disappear before I got to her.

The few peoples in front of me had Taylor wish their kid a happy birthday on video and he did it without hesitation, this was my chance to have another blog shout out.

At this point I told Pat the plan and he rolled his eyes at me, I almost plucked them from his head but refrained because he was my camera guy.

Finally, Taylor and I were united. He came at me with open arms, and I embraced him, because I am also hugger.

He was a bit bony so I loosened up my grip a smidge in hopes I didn’t hurt him already.

I noticed he had a cute lil’ eyelash on his face and for most of our conversation that’s all I was thinking about.

Do I tell him, do I brush it away with my stranger fingers and make a wish? Or just stare at it and move on with my life, hoping one day it would go away and Taylor would once again be normal.

I went with option 3.

Below is our whole interaction, check it out and then we’ll talk some more afterwards.

Hi, what did you think? I loved it, I smile when I think about it. I feel it went really good, he was a total sport about it and I only looked half retarded.

That’s the downfall with having gum in my mouth, it looks very sloppy and unprofessional BUT on the upside my mouth was back to its normal moistness and it was also minty fresh.

My lame dancing and awkwardness was very noticeable, that’s just how I roll, but I’m sure Taylor thought it was super adorable.

And I’m pretty sure he liked me, he totally says ” You’re funny, I like you” in the video and videos don’t lie, unless he was lying… he wouldn’t lie?

Look how cute we are below.

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He also, signed my ticket stub.

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Can you see what he put? No?

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“Lauren! My favorite Cleveland Stalker! Love, Taylor Williamson”

I’m just sayin’

Check out some more videos from Taylor below and his performance on America’s Got Talent.

We hugged again and then parted ways but not before I took 65 pictures of my new friend and Taylor like I promised.

Emily was still there but she looked like she was ready to bounce. My tiny woman crush was standing in front of me so I said hi and went in for a hug but she didn’t seem as welcoming as I was hoping.

She looked at me and was like “You want a signature” and of course I did, she saw that Taylor wrote my name so she confirmed that I was Lauren and then signed away, then we got in close for a picture.

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It came out really good, and she looks happy to be there so maybe I was just being dramatic. I read on Twitter that she was sicker than a dog over the last few days so maybe that’s why she didn’t want to make out with me.

I  told Pat to jump in and get himself a little somethin’ somethin’.

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How sweet!

Check out the video below of Emily’s performance on American’s Got Talent!

Well folks, that’s it for this gal and the American’s Got Talent crew.

We had a lot of fun, wasn’t sure what to expect with it being a variety act and in a venue we’ve never been to before but we enjoyed ourselves.

Everyone was super nice and patient, I couldn’t ask for anything else.

I am glad we went and glad we didn’t fork out the $$ to do the official meet and greet, I was able to snag a few and for free so that was tremendous.

Thank you again to Tomas, Taylor, and Emily for being amazing in every way, on and off the stage and of course the staff at the Hard Rock Rocksino.

Special thanks to all my fans, all 3 and of half of you!

Till next time!

 

STALK ON!