CONFLICT OF BLOGGING CONSISTENTLY
So here I am.
I want to blog about the random, scary, and inappropriate thoughts that float around inside my head. Most of these thoughts suffocate never to be seen or heard from, not until the next morning when I have my first bowel movement, but even then it’s too late to share em.
I sit here, trying to work but all I can think about is writing. I come here to write but I feel guilty about not getting any work done, this is clearly going to be a vicious cycle.
I’ve read those above 93 words over and over and over again, get tired and then go back to calibration documents and excel charts. I come back and have a tiny monologue with myself about the use of “bowel movement”… more gross than funny?
I clearly see my tiny corn filled ideas floating around in a white pool of water with little X’s over their eyes, but to others those creative little poop guys I see soo sharp in my mind look like regular brown turds lacking fiber. So here I’m torn with even keeping the sentence in there.
*Whispers* (I’m keeping the sentence in there)
If I go down this path of regular blogging, am I committed enough to post on a daily basis? My heart is like “HELLS YEAH” and then aggressively high fives me.
My brain has a sit down conversation with me on how consistently blogging looks unrealistic for me and my future…
WHAT A CONVERSATION LOOKS LIKE WITH MYSELF
Brain: “Lauren. This sounds great and all but tell me when you’re going to find time to write?”
Me: “Shit, I mean I’ve thought about this before but I can probably make it work.”
Brain: “Monday, you work till 4 and then have an hour to maybe eat and fix your fro in the mirror before you go to bowling. After bowling, well you usually go to bed.”
Me: “I can do it at bowling, I’ve done it before.” I say feeling proud of myself.
Brain: “Correct, you have, but it’s rude. Your friends try to talk to you and you’re face is buried in your iPad, plus, you can’t really focus on your game OR your writing… can you?”
Me: “No. How about Tuesda—-“
Brain: “Tuesday you were going to say? Tuesdays you work a double, by the time you get home it’s right to bed for you.” A slight pause “Maybe Wednesday, depending on what time your volleyball game is after work. If it’s early, you’re rushing around trying to eat something and then you’re out the door. If it’s late, you sometimes go into your 2nd job for more hours or you look for something to eat and dick around on social media… So, maybe Wednesday. We’ll hold off on that one.”
Me: “Ok, maybe Wednesdays.”
Brain: “Thursdays, work 8-9 hours and then you go to the bowing alley to watch Patrick bowl. You don’t have to but, he likes when you’re up their cheering him on. Plus you get to eat bowling alley food and drink for free because the guys love you. Thursday is also an option…”
Me: “Yeah, Thursdays are fun.”
Brain: “Fridays… the usual work and then volleyball. Same thing with how late the games are, you may go into job #2 because you need the money or you’ll sit on the couch and veg with Patrick because you have 1 million recorded shows on your DVR you have to watch.”
Me: “I can’t tell, am I crying or is it you?”
Brain: “Saturday, every Saturday you work your 2nd job and what you do after that depends on the weekend plans but usually it’s home to die… and do you want to talk about Sundays?”
Me: “Not really…”
Brain: “Sundays you get up super early and go tailgating when the Browns are in town, at least you get to drink because the pain afterwards is usually too much to bare. You get home, eat a whole pizza, watch more shows or football and then go to bed to die. Somewhere in between you’ve maybe fed the cats/turtle, showered, did laundry or dishes, sat down, or took a breath. 4 1/2 hours later you alarm goes off, it’s Monday and you’ve started that all over again. If you’re lucky the cat puke you’ll step in on your way to the bathroom won’t be super gooey and that body you’ve neglected to wash for 36 hours will be good enough for one more shower-less day, saving you time to run and snag a Red Bull before your shift starts… that’s if your bank card doesn’t decline…again.”
The End..or is it?
As you can see folks, that’s my schedule in a nutshell, give or take a few random occurrences. There are definitely loop holes and plenty of opportunities to get some writing in but usually when that happens I am just soo exhausted that writing is the last thing on my tired mind. I’ve tried to sneak in it at work but that’s unfair to myself and my place of employment… so I steer clear of that.
I’ve come up with a few ways to help myself overcome this dilemma and find some time for myself and writing. Hopefully these can help you too!
- Jot down a few ideas, make a list of topics to write about. Pick ONE idea and periodically throughout the day think about it, if you have time… begin to write. I feel once you get those creative juices flowing it’s easier to just get to work rather then sitting at your screen thinking of something. I’ve done that where I’ll think of something all day and put together a little story in my head, it’s actually getting motivated to take that extra step and start the blogging process.
- Finding the time: This is a hard one. You have to be willing to give some things up, or cut some things short without turning your life upside down. For example. Maybe I can skip out on watching my husband bowl here and there, or making an hour designated to my writing directly after work or before dinner.
- Don’t force it, if it’s not flowing then walk away. But if those ideas come flooding in, just have some paper, a computer, or a phone handy to jot down all those nifty ideas.
What are some good ideas that you as a busy blogger use to help you maintain a regular blogging lifestyle? I’d LOVE to hear them.
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